Saturday, February 26, 2011

Ahem.


Is this true?
Only both of them know the answer...

♥ Gwendoline

Friday, February 25, 2011

醒了

既然你和她已许下了永恒的承诺,我也只好献上祝福。我并不像李圣杰的歌曲那么伟大,但如果你已下定决心要这么做,那你去做吧!我相信上天这样的安排,也许是要考验我们,才能让我们成长。或许你有天会明白这几天的我可以在你面前如此的冷静,或许你永远都不会知道我这段时间所有的痛苦。等到哪天你已认定她是你的未来,那么这些心痛和痛苦的感觉想必是值得的。那段感情和回忆,会永远的埋在我心里,一直被珍惜。无法再把时间和感觉倒流,唯能做的是慢慢淡忘。若我不再对所有有关于你的事有任何敏感,那就代表我已不再对你留恋。相信我,我绝对能做到,因为我也不想自己被困在伤心的圈子那么久。还是那么一句,只要你幸福快乐,我就会好好过 :) 。

♥ Gwendoline

Friday, February 18, 2011

无法再逆序,只好顺序吧。


Hey there, people. I don't know how long I didn't really update my blog from the last post until now. Oh well, this post is going to be in Mandarin, it's all about what I want to say in these few days, which are kept inside the heart for quite a long time. So if you guys don't understand Mandarin, just go to Google translate then, even though it might be not that accurate, at least you can get a roughly idea what I'm going to talk about.

这几天,是我至今的人生以来最难挨过的一段日子。我真的无法形容我有多么的难过和心痛,而且还比上次的更加深。那件事一直被隐瞒着,真的不知道能隐瞒到多久。我现在终于明白“心痛”并不需要解释,不需要说出来,而是真的可以感觉一个“痛”可以让你全身不自在,让你真的可以体会到“痛”的苦。每当我毅想起那件事,眼泪是真的无法控制般留下来。

曾经,我以为一切会顺利;曾经,我以为我会很幸福;曾经,我以为我会维持那一段快乐。曾经啊曾经,以为啊以为,真的只是一场美丽的恶梦。一直以来,我不抱很大的希望。我从来没有去想要追求什么,我也不敢去想将来的事情会有什么转变。但,因为那天的那几句话,真的让我深深感受我是快乐的,我是幸福的,感觉是如此的真实,绝对不是骗人。也因为这样,忘记了快乐之后一定会有伤心的来临。只因为一个“变心”和一种“想法”就足够让我崩溃。我真的没想过我会面临这种事情,只能孤单的“痛”。一个“他”,可以把我打败,我实在是太脆弱了。

时间突然变得很漫长,日子突然变得很困难。我不知道我到底做错了什么,上天和命运要这样整我,玩弄我。我也不知道我已牺牲了不少水分。我真的是无法接受事实,因为这太残酷了。平时的我都很相信缘分,可是现在我在犹豫当中。我很害怕一个人,因为我不知到会流泪多久,伤心多久。幸好有身边朋友的支持,我才能撑到现在。谢谢你们。

是,我是很气你对我这样,心里的痛你无法了解。虽然如此,我并不怪你,因为那是你的选择,你的自由,你的权利。我知道现在的你一定不会在意我的感受。我也很确定你不会读这篇文章,所以我根本就不期待你会有什么回应。你曾经许下的每个承诺,我仍然还记得一清二楚。已确定这一切没法回头,即使我再怎样怀念请求,我明白这已成了定局。我不想做伟人,牺牲任何事情,但我还是希望不管未来怎样,你还是幸福,你还是快乐,因为我喜欢看你笑。你再也不需要为我感到内疚,就算“对不起”也无法回头了,你也无法弥补你带给我的伤害。你对我撒的谎言,我是真的很难接受。你根本想象不到我这几天是如何度过。我真的已对这些感觉麻木了。

算了,我也不想再说了,说了也没用,只能让自己更痛苦而已。我还是要谢谢你,曾经给我一段美好的回忆,那是如此的值得我珍惜的礼物,我永远都不会忘记。现在这感觉慢慢地埋在心里最深一处。我也从这里体会到原来幸福可以很短暂,可以因一个转折变成痛苦。

所以,我真的深深希望身边的朋友会好好珍惜他们身边的每一位,尤其是找到另一半,哪怕是永远还是短暂。不要白白错过机会,因为你不会知道它会持续多久,可能是一辈子,或是哪一天会失去。

就这样,结束了这一场美丽的恶梦。

♥ Gwendoline

Saturday, February 5, 2011

:D


Hey people. haa. Again, Happy Chinese New Year. 

What did you guys do in Chinese New Year? Visit to relative's houses and find friends? Get angpaus? Play around fireworks and candles? That's normal. Me? I did my assignments during CNY, kinda pity huh? T______T. Can't blame anything, because our lecturers gave lots of assignments to let us finish during this 1 week break, so unfair. Why can't we just celebrate our CNY happily? Well, this is called "SAD". haa. But thank goodness, I have done some assignments, my mother helped me a lot. I'll show up my assignments later in here :D. 

I thought of posting a article about 2011. Well, I feel so sorry that I didn't do that, as time are packed this recently. Never mind, I'll continue my part 2 and part 3 soon, gathering and outing, also my wishlist in 2011 (although it's a bit late xD). Wait wait wait ya. I know I'm lazy la, but trust me, I'll do those updates soon. hee.


♥ Gwendoline

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Happy Chinese New Year 2011

From Shakir (My classmate in college :D)

Happy Rabbit Year people. Currently is busy doing assignments. Will update more after assignments. Anyway, have a happy Chinese New Year to all my family and friends. heee. 

(I wanted to continue more, but so sorry can't do it now. I'll do that after assignments, I promise :).)

♥ Gwendoline