Thursday, December 31, 2009

2010~

happy new year Pictures, Images and Photos

After the clock striking 12am, it’s going to be a brand new year. 2010, what does it means to all of us? Nobody will know until we experience it. Times goes fast, too early or too late? I’m not sure. I’ve never thought that in this year 2009, it changes lots of things. Happy or sad, everything comes. 17 years, I’ve been living as a human, it really makes differences in my life. Myself, family, friendship, country, world… What I really hope is everything is going to be fine and good in 2010. Bye 2009, I will not bring the sadness that you gave to me. I'll smile to face 2010.

Happy New Year 2010!!

一切已结束


alone Pictures, Images and Photos


坦白说,这一年是一个很大的转折。看了那篇文章有超过十次了,看多了并没有第一次那么激动,因为我已明白文章所带来的讯息。那一刹那,原来你所想的不一定会实现,所有事情可能会在一瞬间改变了。改变并不是问题,而是看你怎么去应付及面对。不想再回想,因为那是一段不愉快地回忆。既然以选择放手,就要潇洒地放开。得不到会想获得,一旦拥有了就会抓紧不妨,但越紧反而会反效果。有些事根本不能预料,就像世界末日一样,它要来就来,谁也阻止不了。曾经想再次争取,但我知道到了这个阶段是回不了头,因为我明白就算复原只能让大家痛苦。放弃,对大家都公平,至少受到伤害的机会不会再发生。我宁愿把过去的故事当成一段美丽有幸福的回忆,都不想再次哭泣了。一直以来的真心被误会了,我也没办法了,毕竟自己只能相信所亲眼看到和经历的。严格来讲,争执是双方的错。若一方觉得自己没错,另一方只有两条路,解释或放弃。选择放弃的一方,另一方就得配合。有人说,从陌生人可以曾为朋友是快乐的,但从朋友到陌生人是难过的。我明白,所以我只好逃避,离开,装不知道。从那个眼神及动作开始就知道结果,何必要再纠缠下去,这样实在太无闹了。或许以后不能在见面,只愿他永远开心就好。

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry X'mas!!


Christmas Banner



I spent 2 days to finish this Christmas banner.

It's not an easy job to think the design.
Well, at least I made it.
This is my first time to design a banner,
So please comment it.
I'll improve more with the comments~

Merry X'mas

Saturday, December 19, 2009

未完成的文章

忙于收拾pendrive里的文件时,无意中看到我还没写完的文章。那是关于生母华乐团到槟城比赛的一些感想。曾经答应嘉怡和幸茹回敬快写完,没想到这件事已被我忽略了一段时间。说真的其实我是不想放上来的,都已经过了这么久,放了可能会让人觉得我始终还放不下。后来读了这上半部后,惊讶的感觉涌了起来。不停地问自己,那是我写的吗?非常陌生,不像自己的写作风格。或许这是当时的感受吧。


那次,是我在圣母华乐团里最后一次的比赛,最后一次在台上弹扬琴。我从没想过,时间是过得这么快,快得太突然了,让我一直不敢相信,我已是时候离开乐团了。即使我有多么不舍得,有多么后悔,我也应放手了。之前,妈妈一直反对我参加这次的比赛。我也曾经想放手,让小的参加就算了。多亏有老师的,使我立刻改变主意,鼓起勇气问妈妈的允许。我并没后悔参加这次的春蕾全国华乐团大赛,若当初我放弃了,我想我不会有现在的我,也不会有这一段部落格文章。是我的荣幸可以参加比赛,感谢妈妈当时的答应。老实说,《春风幻想曲》这首歌练的不用再练了,因为我们中二时就开始接触这首歌。我也预料到,这首原本对我而言很闷的歌,竟然成了我最后一年的比赛歌曲。自以为自己已练得很不错了,但是每次都会被老师说手腕太硬,声音不好听。再说,扬琴的杂音太多了,听久了就会很烦。幸好,有三德中学华乐团的音乐会激励我,让我受益不浅。我懂得运用手腕的柔度去弹这首曲子,还教了学妹们。当时的我,有些光荣,也有些惭愧。我就快离开了,才发现到那个秘诀,对我,对思卉实在是太迟了。但我还有机会把我所学得到的技巧教好学妹们,算是对之前的学姐们做了一个交代。。。

老实说,若要我现在继续下去,只恐怕写不出来了。因为我已放开了,也不再给自己压力,对学妹们100%信心。再怎么说,我已算是“退休”,再插手下去真不像话了,哈哈。倒是听他们现在的故事,跟之前的乐团有了变化,还蛮有趣。不过如果在未来的日子遇到问题,随时可以找我的,我会尽全力足于一臂之力。

After SPM

river playing the fall leaves Pictures, Images and Photos

自由で幸せな子供のように感じる

Feel Free and Happy Like a Child

Finally, after a month of the war with SPM, it came to the end at 14th December 2009 in Monday. We took Chinese paper on that day. Overall about this SPM, I have to say that I’ve tried my best to do it well. I don’t know whether how many “A”s I can get, at least I worked hard to achieve a better result. Honestly, this exam really is the exam that everyone puts a lot of effort on it. So, I better don’t think too much now, just want to enjoy my life now.

After SPM, my secondary school life is getting to the end. I will miss everything of my school life, especially my classmates and friends. I appreciate them a lot, for being my friends. I will remember the friendships, it’s worth to treasure in my heart. There was a small gathering of 5S7 after the Chinese paper of SPM. The cake was delicious, baked from Felicia’s mother. We sang the song “Friends”, no feeling actually.

Of course, I went out with friends these few days, to Jusco, Parade… We sang in KBox, ate in Sushi King, watched movie in cinema, bought some books in Popular Bookstore, walked around, and chit-chat. Some of the 5S7’s classmates went to Xiau Wei’s house for a party. Activities were done separately for gangs. Some sang Karaoke, some played cardboard games, some played badminton, some watched DVD, some played piano, some swam in the pool, some busied talking and laughing. Well, quite enjoy, but feel a little disappointed that not everyone of the class came. It’s hard to have a gathering again after this. I’m sure that I’ll attend to the next gathering. I really hope that will happen someday. *Praying*

Well, I'm totally free from textbooks, schooling, uniforms and exam. Suddenly loneliness appears in my life. Dull with no colour at all. So, please date with me. XD

Saturday, December 12, 2009

dream..


These few days, I think a lot, everything in my life. About the relationship, my dreams, my future, my past, my school life, my health.... anything about me. I dreamed a lot of irrelevant things, so ridiculous. I remember one of my dreams was about chemistry teacher. I was happy when I knew that Ms. Ng was our class's chemistry teacher for Form 5, unluckily I'm now already Form 5, how could that happen?? Another one is my house was fulled with mice, cockroaches, lizards (geckos).... OH MY GOD!! What am I thinking about? Sometimes very funny, sometimes really nothing to say. Honestly, from those dreams, I found out that actually I think too much before sleeping. It's not a good news. Well, just stop thinking nonsense, brain.