I really want to run away from reality of my life. I don't want to face those matters anymore. They're stressful and make me feel tension. I hate that!!!!! I just don't understand why some people can say anything they like without knowing the truth. How childish, how useless. Is this the real life??? Maybe the answer is "yes", but I try to pretend nothing happened in life, feel peace and happy. Can't I just escape from the reality? It's full of darkness and lots of evils. Some people didn't realize what situation they are in now, do something that's not related to them. Some people like to say nonsence. Their minds are more childish compared to mine. Hey, wake up!!!! Just understand what you are doing now, please??? Those things they feel not satisfy are actually the main problem made by themselves. I don't want to face them again if I can do so. Reality is the one I understand I have to stay. Hope to escape as soon as possible.
I'm having difficulty to walk these days. Don't know how it become like that, urgh! Near to the day of competition and this happen to me. Well, I will try to walk as normal as I can. Don't worry, I'll be fine. My hands also in pain now, practise too much for yang qin. Last week Sam Tet's Chinese Orchestra held a concert, and it influence me a lot. I know more about how to play yang qin in a smooth style. Thank you for the concert. I've learned a lot from there. Tomorrow, we'll go to Penang for our Chinese Orchestra International Competition. We aim to get 2 gold medals. Maybe it's a bit tuff, we'll try our best to play well. AMCCO 2009, aza aza fighting. Wish us luck.