Thursday, December 31, 2009

2010~

happy new year Pictures, Images and Photos

After the clock striking 12am, it’s going to be a brand new year. 2010, what does it means to all of us? Nobody will know until we experience it. Times goes fast, too early or too late? I’m not sure. I’ve never thought that in this year 2009, it changes lots of things. Happy or sad, everything comes. 17 years, I’ve been living as a human, it really makes differences in my life. Myself, family, friendship, country, world… What I really hope is everything is going to be fine and good in 2010. Bye 2009, I will not bring the sadness that you gave to me. I'll smile to face 2010.

Happy New Year 2010!!

一切已结束


alone Pictures, Images and Photos


坦白说,这一年是一个很大的转折。看了那篇文章有超过十次了,看多了并没有第一次那么激动,因为我已明白文章所带来的讯息。那一刹那,原来你所想的不一定会实现,所有事情可能会在一瞬间改变了。改变并不是问题,而是看你怎么去应付及面对。不想再回想,因为那是一段不愉快地回忆。既然以选择放手,就要潇洒地放开。得不到会想获得,一旦拥有了就会抓紧不妨,但越紧反而会反效果。有些事根本不能预料,就像世界末日一样,它要来就来,谁也阻止不了。曾经想再次争取,但我知道到了这个阶段是回不了头,因为我明白就算复原只能让大家痛苦。放弃,对大家都公平,至少受到伤害的机会不会再发生。我宁愿把过去的故事当成一段美丽有幸福的回忆,都不想再次哭泣了。一直以来的真心被误会了,我也没办法了,毕竟自己只能相信所亲眼看到和经历的。严格来讲,争执是双方的错。若一方觉得自己没错,另一方只有两条路,解释或放弃。选择放弃的一方,另一方就得配合。有人说,从陌生人可以曾为朋友是快乐的,但从朋友到陌生人是难过的。我明白,所以我只好逃避,离开,装不知道。从那个眼神及动作开始就知道结果,何必要再纠缠下去,这样实在太无闹了。或许以后不能在见面,只愿他永远开心就好。

Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry X'mas!!


Christmas Banner



I spent 2 days to finish this Christmas banner.

It's not an easy job to think the design.
Well, at least I made it.
This is my first time to design a banner,
So please comment it.
I'll improve more with the comments~

Merry X'mas

Saturday, December 19, 2009

未完成的文章

忙于收拾pendrive里的文件时,无意中看到我还没写完的文章。那是关于生母华乐团到槟城比赛的一些感想。曾经答应嘉怡和幸茹回敬快写完,没想到这件事已被我忽略了一段时间。说真的其实我是不想放上来的,都已经过了这么久,放了可能会让人觉得我始终还放不下。后来读了这上半部后,惊讶的感觉涌了起来。不停地问自己,那是我写的吗?非常陌生,不像自己的写作风格。或许这是当时的感受吧。


那次,是我在圣母华乐团里最后一次的比赛,最后一次在台上弹扬琴。我从没想过,时间是过得这么快,快得太突然了,让我一直不敢相信,我已是时候离开乐团了。即使我有多么不舍得,有多么后悔,我也应放手了。之前,妈妈一直反对我参加这次的比赛。我也曾经想放手,让小的参加就算了。多亏有老师的,使我立刻改变主意,鼓起勇气问妈妈的允许。我并没后悔参加这次的春蕾全国华乐团大赛,若当初我放弃了,我想我不会有现在的我,也不会有这一段部落格文章。是我的荣幸可以参加比赛,感谢妈妈当时的答应。老实说,《春风幻想曲》这首歌练的不用再练了,因为我们中二时就开始接触这首歌。我也预料到,这首原本对我而言很闷的歌,竟然成了我最后一年的比赛歌曲。自以为自己已练得很不错了,但是每次都会被老师说手腕太硬,声音不好听。再说,扬琴的杂音太多了,听久了就会很烦。幸好,有三德中学华乐团的音乐会激励我,让我受益不浅。我懂得运用手腕的柔度去弹这首曲子,还教了学妹们。当时的我,有些光荣,也有些惭愧。我就快离开了,才发现到那个秘诀,对我,对思卉实在是太迟了。但我还有机会把我所学得到的技巧教好学妹们,算是对之前的学姐们做了一个交代。。。

老实说,若要我现在继续下去,只恐怕写不出来了。因为我已放开了,也不再给自己压力,对学妹们100%信心。再怎么说,我已算是“退休”,再插手下去真不像话了,哈哈。倒是听他们现在的故事,跟之前的乐团有了变化,还蛮有趣。不过如果在未来的日子遇到问题,随时可以找我的,我会尽全力足于一臂之力。

After SPM

river playing the fall leaves Pictures, Images and Photos

自由で幸せな子供のように感じる

Feel Free and Happy Like a Child

Finally, after a month of the war with SPM, it came to the end at 14th December 2009 in Monday. We took Chinese paper on that day. Overall about this SPM, I have to say that I’ve tried my best to do it well. I don’t know whether how many “A”s I can get, at least I worked hard to achieve a better result. Honestly, this exam really is the exam that everyone puts a lot of effort on it. So, I better don’t think too much now, just want to enjoy my life now.

After SPM, my secondary school life is getting to the end. I will miss everything of my school life, especially my classmates and friends. I appreciate them a lot, for being my friends. I will remember the friendships, it’s worth to treasure in my heart. There was a small gathering of 5S7 after the Chinese paper of SPM. The cake was delicious, baked from Felicia’s mother. We sang the song “Friends”, no feeling actually.

Of course, I went out with friends these few days, to Jusco, Parade… We sang in KBox, ate in Sushi King, watched movie in cinema, bought some books in Popular Bookstore, walked around, and chit-chat. Some of the 5S7’s classmates went to Xiau Wei’s house for a party. Activities were done separately for gangs. Some sang Karaoke, some played cardboard games, some played badminton, some watched DVD, some played piano, some swam in the pool, some busied talking and laughing. Well, quite enjoy, but feel a little disappointed that not everyone of the class came. It’s hard to have a gathering again after this. I’m sure that I’ll attend to the next gathering. I really hope that will happen someday. *Praying*

Well, I'm totally free from textbooks, schooling, uniforms and exam. Suddenly loneliness appears in my life. Dull with no colour at all. So, please date with me. XD

Saturday, December 12, 2009

dream..


These few days, I think a lot, everything in my life. About the relationship, my dreams, my future, my past, my school life, my health.... anything about me. I dreamed a lot of irrelevant things, so ridiculous. I remember one of my dreams was about chemistry teacher. I was happy when I knew that Ms. Ng was our class's chemistry teacher for Form 5, unluckily I'm now already Form 5, how could that happen?? Another one is my house was fulled with mice, cockroaches, lizards (geckos).... OH MY GOD!! What am I thinking about? Sometimes very funny, sometimes really nothing to say. Honestly, from those dreams, I found out that actually I think too much before sleeping. It's not a good news. Well, just stop thinking nonsense, brain.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Sick~


I don't know what happened to me now. Can't sleep at night, but feel sleepy in the afternoon and evening. Eat food, but feel like there is something in my throat, can't be swallowed. Want to vomit, but nothing to vomit. My neck is painful, is that my sleeping posture gets wrong? Sometimes, I have a headache and feel like going to faint. I hate myself for being like this. It's just an examination, but really makes me uncomfortable. Who likes exams? Haiz..

Thursday, November 26, 2009

突然的开心


前天早上,我跑到华乐室,想给学妹们鼓励一下,结果我已错过良机,只能站在那儿傻傻看着巴士离开。其实,要不是比赛移前进行,中五团员是有机会去陪陪他们。可惜,我们并不像往年的学姐那么幸运。我带着失落的心情考了道德,看着时钟滴滴答答,遗憾在我心里徘徊。温习了整个下午,突然扬琴组给我通电话,开心的泪水在心里流了起来。把书丢在一旁,一眼都不看,躲在房里听电话。和他们聊天,仿佛自己还没离开华乐。每件事有开始就一定会有结束,这是每个人必定经历的事。我看好他们会比以前好。时间流逝得快,只希望将来的我们还会继续保持联络吧~ 再次强调,我替乐团开心,两队得了金奖。往后多多加油哦~永远支持你们的!!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

NOVEMBER !!!!!

It's NOVEMBER now.
It's time to start CONCENTRATE on my studies now.
I will try to less online, less update my blog.
If possible, maybe a few words for a few days.
I will control myself, not to play anymore.

YEA, everyone, GAMBATEH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

This is Life

I just came back from restaurant with my family. My father's friend invited us to have our dinner. When they talked about aquarium and fish, the uncle said his fishes is put into a pond outside of his house. Unfortunately, birds always eat up the fishes, make the number of fishes less and less. My father asked him "why don't you close up the pond (of course holes are available for the fishes to breathe)?" Guess what, the uncle said "Haiz, this is life. There'll be something like this happened around us. If not, the ecosystem is unbalanced." Well, I totally agree with what the uncle said. This is LIFE. It's very unique, and amazing. The animals eat plants, we eat animals and plants, for living purpose. Thanks for the nature, you're so wonderful...

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Beethoven Virus

I wanna share something now. Yup, it's about Beethoven Virus. Actually I haven't watch this drama yet, although we can watch it from 8TV. I bought this DVD last 3 months ago. I'll watch it after SPM, together with Nodame Cantabile. Both of those drama narrate about classical music, and I fall in love deeply with the beauty of Classical Music.


If you watch this drama, try to listen the opening song. It's actually from Piano Sonata No.8 in C minor, Op. 13, "Pathetique" 3rd Movement by Beethoven, one of my classical composer's idol.

This song is played by Diana Bochenva, a violinist from Spain. From a piano become an electric violin, too amazing and incredible. I love this song very very very much.


Another thing that I want to talk about is I do love the female character of this drama.
~ Lee Jia Ah ~
Pretty, Glamorous, Charm, Noble, Graceful

The trumpet one also very cute and handsome, haha!!


Please ignore the conductor, I don't like him. I prefer Chiaki sama from Nodame Cantabile, this one too old... haha!!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Tagged by Jiayi, a lovely junior

幸福點點名遊戲規則回答下列問題,
貼到自己的網誌或報台寫完後,
自己加一個問題然後傳給十個人
可以點點過的人,
被你點到的人你要去跟他說,我點到你了。
寫完後去跟點到你人說「我寫完了」不可以不寫喔,不寫幸福就會跑掉喔

1. 我的大名:Gwendoline
2. 我的生日:6/2
3. 誰傳給你的:Jiayi
4. 說出五個好朋友:全部对我好的都是我的好朋友
5. 生日想要得到什麼禮物:Anime and Manga!! (漫画最好是Tsubasa Chronicles)
6. 近期開心的是:可以拿起麦克风唱歌
7. 近期壓力大的是:SPM!!!!
8. 未來想做什麼:Multimedia Designer (发梦是音乐家)
9. 有沒有喜歡的人:有的。。。
10. 同學會要回去找老師嗎:看看是哪位老师。不要“她”就好
11. 跟誰出去最幸福:家人,朋友,情人
12. 如果你的兩個好友吵架了:不知道
13. 跟情人出去最想去哪:海边看日落
14. 聖誕節要做啥:与朋友开派对
15. 最想跟誰過聖誕節:朋友
16. 有沒有起床气:我不会
17. 有幾個兄弟姐妹:1个妹妹
18. 最喜歡的一首歌(女生的):Gift of A Friend
19. 最喜歡的一首歌(男生的):不懂
20. 喜歡什麼顏色:粉红!
21. 上廁所會不會先沖水:看看
22. 愛不愛我:爱!!
23. 喜歡男生還是女生:都爱!!
24. 最想大聲說什麼:哈哈!!!
25. 半夜敢不敢自己上廁所:绝对敢
26. 上廁所會不會脫褲褲:不脱裤怎么上?
27. 誰很欠打:脸上写“欠大”的
28. 現在很迷什麼:Demi Lovato, 徐佳莹, 王羽佳
29. 睡相很差:还好
30. 現在的時間:4.17pm
31. 是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人:爱的
32. 體重多少:52kg
33. 今天天氣:阴阴的
34. 你懷孕了嗎:哈哈!
35. 你若中樂透最想做什么:买钢琴!!
36. 大學生一定要玩的活動:古典音乐!!
37. 如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色,你選:不选可以吗?
38. 你覺得自己性格怎樣:善变,好笑

【點名單】
1. Maelynn
2. Sin Loo
3. Chai Xiao
4. Mai Mai
5. Wei Chien
6. Qin Shi
7. Cheryl
8. Sook Sin
9. Chi Yee
10. Sing Cong

01-【 4 號認識 6 號嗎】:他们是好朋友
02-【 10 號是男還是女】:女
03-【 8 號的興趣是】:音乐
04-【 1 號有沒有兄弟姐妹】:1个哥哥,1个姐姐
05-【 7 號姓氏】:邝
06-【 10 號人緣好嗎】:好得很
07-【 4 號有人追嗎】:有吧?不清楚哦
08-【 承上 2 號呢】:我跟她很好的
09-【 6 號喜歡的顏色是】:青色
10-【 3 號和 10 號是友嗎】:朋友来的
11-【 8 號的生日是】:我没问过她
12-【 5 號讀哪呢】:AMC
13-【 你怎麼認識 10 號的】:华乐
14-【 你跟 1 號的生日差幾個月】:2年20天
15-【 你和 9 號有出去玩過嗎】:没有
16-【 你喜歡 2 號聊天嗎】:聊华乐的多
17-【 你喜歡和 3 號在一起嗎】:当然喜欢,她很搞笑

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Study Now.

Hmm, what to tell for today? Well, teachers in school distributed lots of Trial Exam Paper from other states. I know that it's running of time if I want to study from the beginning of the chapter now. So, I'm going to do more exercises and questions to help me now. I think this is the only solution. SPM is going to start on 18/11, next month. I guess this will be the time for the pimples to "pop" out! T.T I just hate pimples, who will like it? Friends around us busy with the book of remembrance. It's a trend among the students especially who are going to leave the school and say goodbye to teachers and friends. I just feel reluctant inside my heart. Honestly, I can't wait to leave the school, it's boring. But, I don't want to leave the friends. They're so nice and friendly. I don't know will I meet them again. I love them very much, warm and kind. I wonder how would my life be when I step in to the society and work. If I had a choice, I want to study forever. Although it is a bit impossible, I just want to learn more. I want to learn about music, art, computer... Back to the title, study the books? YES!!!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Colours in Lights

Imagine that the attractive and colourful lights at night?
I wish I can have a walk
I close my eyes and feel the colours
which are trying to tell me that they are on cloud nine
as they can have a chance to shine on me
I'm in the world of them
making friends with
red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple, black and white
the last is PINK
I want to thank them for being with us
let us see the beauty of the world

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

PMR wishes!!

To all the PMR candidates,


All the best~
Good Luck ya~
Gambateh~

( Especially my friends )


Best wishes from
Gwendoline

Friday, October 2, 2009

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Dissapointed~

I scored badly in my Trial exam. Well, it's nothing to say about it, 11 subjects only 3 or 4 subjects are improved. I think I have to work hard. It seems likes I have my scores in 50 marks. Everyone, GAMBATEH ya~ It's the time for me to take more serious in my revision. I was not too care for my exam this time, feel a bit give up and I know my situation because I didn't study at all. I always burn my midnight oil, so that's why my results are worse enough. During exam although I felt very panic and stressed and wanted to faint to escape the exam, I have no choice and simply answer. I feel sorry to myself for being an irresponsible person. SPM is coming soon next month, so I think I better stop playing and concentrate in my studies and do more exercises now. Yup, that's what I've told myself just now. So, I wish I can do it. Next week, the form 3s will have their PMR. Wish them all the best then. (I've started my PMR - 1/10/07, what a memorable time....)

Sunday, September 27, 2009

出卖?背叛?

‘‘朋友带给我们的伤害,往往是无心的;而朋友给我们的帮助,却是真心的。”
来自秀茵姐姐

我真的相信这句话,100%的信任。我觉得身边的朋友都不会出卖或背叛我吧!因为我绝对相信朋友是以真诚的心对待每个人的,会出卖的就不是朋友了。或许,事实上这是无可信任的事,因为出来社会后,什么人都有,谁会知道身边的人是真是假。唯能做的事是小心吧!不过,我想我出来工作后,面对的人与事应该不会像在学校一样这么顺畅美好了。

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Happy Birthday to Kai Xin

Happy Birthday, my friend !!!!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Nodame Cantabile : Finale


Yeah !!!!!!!! Nodame Cantabile the Final Live-Action will be held in next year's Spring, same for Anime. Haha, can't wait for the movie and anime now. But after that, it's the end of Nodame Cantabile's story. T.T....Well, the manga is going to end soon, too. Whatever, I still like it!!!!


Here's the Trailer, yippie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Monday, September 21, 2009

想通?

或许我真的太过介意了
之前的我因看了一些东西而胡思乱想
惹起了朋友
我试着放下
我知道我很自私,从不为别人想
我知道我很容易在意某件事
试着不想它
却太过于冲动,做了一些不该做的事
现在有点点后悔


现在我已想通了
我想若没有我,可能会比较好
而且他们都很开心,我在可能会更扫兴
算了吧!我都没试过
我没资格要求的
(安慰自己的方法)

Sunday, September 20, 2009

20.09.2009

Today is a SPECIAL Day.

It's 20.09.2009.

Wish everyone happy and healthy always.

^o^

Saturday, September 19, 2009

I'm in the newspaper!!! haha~


This is from Ipoh Echo, which is free of charge. Hahahahaha!!!

There will be 2nd Batch...

I'm now on cloud nine~

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Rest and Go


Finally I have finished my Trial Exam. I hope I can pass for all subjects, if possible get better marks. NOT really confident actually, the same situation I faced like Mid-Year Exam, study LAST MINUTE!!! So, now is time for me to rest for a while, then continue my JOURNEY again. Tomorrow onwards is holiday, quite happy to hear the news. I can download videos and spend my time to learn more about HTML code and how to design .gif images. I really admire at the blogskins. They are pretty and special. I hope I can have 1 too. So, now is my time to learn NEW things.

I had a terrible dream about AMCCO two days ago. I remembered that I was in the hall with all the juniors who were going to have a concert at a SUPER BIG stage. Then I helped the Yang Qins' to carry Yang Qin up to the stage. I have forgotten who carried with me, either Jia Yi or Sin Loo, but they carried halfway then put down the Yang Qin. As I carried another side, they suddenly dropped it and ran away to sit at the corner. I was curious, why they did something like that? Why they didn't tell me how I'm going to help them, I was not happy at all, and cried. Oh My God, this would not be happen, I understand. Maybe is my own problem who still cannot put down it. I tried and tried, but still....By the way, I'm not worrying about them, just feel a bit guilty because I'm going to leave the school soon. I will put down the big stone soon. So... HAHAHA!!!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Cute Advertisement

Title: Blobby
Client: Naga DDB
Product/Service: Nippon
Production House: Superwonderful
Animation House: Flystudio
Music: Fuse Music + Sound Design
Duration: 60 seconds


I love this advertisement. So cute! The person who created this advertisement is amazing...

Enjoy ~



Monday, September 14, 2009


Nice water drop.

Still have 3 days to go to finish my SPM Trial.
Well, I think I will get a bad result, not well-prepared at all.
I get ready to accept the result.
I know that I'm short of time to study now.
But, what to do?
Biology and Physics had past.
So, now is Chemistry.
I don't like it,
but still need to study.
Can't wait to finish my trial now!


Sunday, September 13, 2009

T.T sick

我好像病了!!!!!!
整身不舒服的,
怎么办???
明天还有考试的,
加上我还没读完!!!!!
救命啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

逃避

烦恼及问题

不停地纠缠着我

多么想离开现实

过自己想过的生活。。。

Saturday, September 5, 2009

A Comic Designed by Me (feat. Ouran High School Host Club)


Today, I designed a simple comic using the pictures of Ouran High School Host Club. Actually, I wanted to design story of Sakura and Syaoran, but it's difficult to think about the story board. This is one of the projects I have in my computer lesson for level 7. As for level 6, I have to create a simple and short slideshow using Windows Movie Maker. Need to think harder then... haha!

夢田 <3 Dream Field

每個人心裡一畝 一畝田
每個人心裡一個 一個夢
一顆呀一顆種子 是我心裡的一畝田

用它來種什麼 用它來種什麼
種桃種李種春風 開盡梨花春又來

那是我心裡一畝 一畝田
那是我心裡一個 不醒的夢


歌词太有意思了!!! 非常接近我!!

这是翻唱版的“夢田”,原唱是齐秦。

SHE 唱的效果也很好听。

特别喜欢MV里面的沙画




Tuesday, September 1, 2009

"A Musical Joke" or "K.552"



A Musical Joke or K.552 by Mozart Movement IV Presto


Sorry everyone and to myself!!!!! I've promised myself that I will less online, but then I want to share some classical music of MOZART, which is my one of my favorite music composers. The song named "A Musical Joke", by Mozart. If you asked me why the name so funny, I think maybe is the song make the music name it so. It's the funniest classical music that I've ever heard before, and I didn't expect that Mozart composed this song. I thought that classical music is the type of relaxing one. Out of my expectation, it can be scary, exciting, sad, funny, beautiful, gentle, marching, nothing (???), grand... There are too many descriptions that classical music has. And I believe that without these music, pop songs and rock songs will not appear in this world. It started with classical music, which many people think that's boring and sleepy. Back to the title, it's quite difficult to trust that Mozart composed this song and make people feel want to laugh. Also, if he didn't put such a name, it will be less popular. I like the ending, although it's a bit funny and out of tone, still it's the greatest ending that I appreciate a lot. Maybe Mozart tries to be deaf tone. Who knows? I'm sure that if Mozart conducted this piece, he would laugh out loud with the audience non-stop. It doesn't seem like Mozart is a kind of person who like to make fun, maybe he wanted to try something new and special. Mozart, are you a funny person? Haha. Well, do enjoy this "silly" song, and remember to concentrate the last 3 bars, which is the ending. Give some comments after you hear it.

~The comments from Youtube~
"Through this piece we can see Mozart's cheerfulness and sense of humor. This is really fantastic! It makes everyone laugh and smile. He is really a prodigy, and he is playing with music."
"The last 5 seconds sounded better than anything else Mozart ever composed before! It's hilarious!"
"Yes, that is because Mozart created it and was completely unable to make any piece of his less than average."
Even though it's meant to be just a musical mess, it's better than what most could hope to even create!"
"I love the ending! The first usage of poly-tonality in the history of music!"
"Brilliant! Like less genius contemporaries"
"This as the first time in the history in western music that these strange-to-the-ear notes were used, at least in such a way."
"Mozart composed this to make fun of the composers of his time whom he thought to be mediocre, as an example of what they used to compose. We can see that the whole piece is nothing but a series of unsubstantial little melodies and scales which Mozart thought could be written by any little child."

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Trial Exam SPM 2009

Hello there. After this post I'll less online. Although I have my own laptop and there is wireless available in my house, I'll try to control myself by avoiding touching this laptop. Even if I touch it, I know that I use it for music purpose. I can't study without music. This is me~ haha. Well, I will online every Friday as I have computer classes. I'll still check my mail, my facebook, my friendster, my blog, and some revision.... Never mind... I'll try my best and work hard. Gambateh to everyone who are going to have trial exam SPM 2009. Same to the PMR candicates, work hard and good luck. AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We can do it... ^^

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Galileo's Telescope

Galileo's Telescope


Today is the 400th Anniversary of Galileo Galilei's telescope.
I know that from Google.
Galileo Galilei is an Italian astronomer.
On August 25th in 1609, he showed off his unique creation to a group of Venitian merchants.
The object was able to magnify the night sky,
revealing celestial objects nobody could ever find or study before.
Thanks to him, such a brilliant achievement
and big contribution for human beings.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Happy Birthday to Jia Yi, Sim Yew and Sim Fah




Happy Birthday, my dear friends~

Sweet Attire~



They bought from my lovely mum.
Thanks mummy,
they're nice and sweet~
I love them very much!!!!



雨,终于下了
雨,不停地下
雨,下了好久好久
雨,好大
雨,弄乱了我宁静的思想
雨,让我好混乱
雨,仿佛听到我的心声
雨,正配合我现在的心情

我看着雨下,感觉好像它让我的视线变得模糊。我好像失去了方向,不知道自己身在何处。我的梦想离我还很遥远,而我想继续往前走的意念也慢慢变淡了。虽说我已有我的梦想,不再是对未来没有任何看法的人,可是时间过得越快,我越觉得我应该不适合,我不太能承受。我的梦想曾有多变化,曾经想当一位音乐家,曾经想当一位设计师,曾经想当一位有关电脑的。我已不知道我到底要些什么,太多选择反而令我觉得个个都想尝试。我不懂自己的能力到哪里,看不清自己要什么。有人说,现在什么都别想,只要专心于考试,考到好成绩,到时候什么都可以如愿以偿。说来说去,还不是要读好书。我知道最近的我一天比一天懒散,我也不知道为了什么。可能这才是我真正的性格。我对我自己说过,我一定要做好自己的本分,一定要把学业搞好,往后的日子会比较舒服些,爸妈和妹妹还需我的照顾,我不能因为受到一点点挫折而想放弃。以后家里只有我才能有能力撑着下去,他们的生活在我手里。可是,我连我自己的梦想都被告到团团转了。怎么办?原来看不清自己的需要是很痛苦的。人生就好象一片白纸,什么意义都没了。大家都希望自己的人生会是独一无二的,最精彩的一个。看来,我只能读好书,才去烦那些事情了。所以,我不能胡思乱想了,是时候停止,专心一些。。。

Saturday, August 22, 2009

改变

其实我是。。。。

开心?
情绪化?
傻傻?
容易被骗?
没主见?
容易受伤?
脾气暴躁?
没道理?
单纯?
假惺惺?
虚假?
懒惰?
做作?
夸张?
不专心?
容易出丑?
粗心?
不认真?
介意小事情?
转牛角尖?
要别人注意我?
贪玩?
善忘?
心机重?
难忍?
急性子?
容易放弃?

这些是我吗?

或许是,或许不是。

突然觉得自己是一个糟糕的人,

不是一个很好的朋友,

不是一个很好的学生,

不是一个很好的学姐,

不是一个很好的女儿。

我想要改变,改变自我。

但我能改变多少?

我都已经这样了,

根本做不到什么。

唯能做的

应该只有



试着 改变

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Tired


These days, I feel tired for no reasons. Maybe I have not enough sleep, maybe I did a lot of things or I didn't rest at all.... My life is becoming boring. There's no meaning. Why? I also don't know. Is this the school life of Form 5? Keep on studying just because want to get a good result of SPM? I want to entertain myself by doing the things I like such as playing piano, watching movies. SPM stops me. Plus, I'm now very lazy and always forget to bring my books at least once a week. Why? Previously, I said to myself that I must enjoy my school life. I must become happier than the previous me. I must not to be too bother about the things happened to me. NOW? Why I will feel bored of my school life? Why I want to run away from reality? Why I can't accept all the things happened to me? Why I didn't find the way to solve this problem? Why I have no direction of my future? Why I will follow the others' steps? Why I will become like this? WHY? WHY? WHY?

H1N1 is becoming more serious now. No one knows who will become the next patients. Everyone is scared of this virus. Same to me. It seems like the disease is difficult to cure. Is this the life of 2009? The country makes the people get confused and feel nothing. Why?

I feel tired, REALLY, for those issues in school, the disease H1N1, the news in the country and also myself. I want to rest. But I have no time to do so. Trial is coming soon. I didn't even study at all. What am I going to do now? Study? Rest? Or don't bother at all?

Tell me now! Please.

Monday, August 3, 2009

Farewell Party of AMCCO '09


My Memory of AMCCO
will be kept in my heart
FOREVER....


Farewell Party of AMCCO '09 was helded in Mother Pauline Hall, 2 weeks ago. I went there around 6.50 am. Nobody accompany me at that time, so I listened to my MP3 songs by myself ( alone ). Few minutes later, Mei Wah called me and she found me at the Primary School there. We chatted together about something, seriously. Kai Xin then came to school with a big packet of presents inside. I didn't prepare any present for the juniors, just made some bookmarks for them for remembrance.





Hope they will like it!

Other Form 5s also came. We talked and laughed together. Maybe that was the last time we can chat among us. We waited for 20 minutes plus, just waited the Form 4 and Form 3 AJKs to come and find us. They already knew where we were. So they splited to 2 groups to "invite us" to go into the hall. At the beginning, I was free from anyone. No one bother to catch me. Jia Yi and Ying Hui saw me then, chased after as I ran to the field. I didn't want to go inside, but they said have to go because it's a farewell especially for Form 5 seniors. Well, I was just kidding, played with them. Ying Hui gave me the seniors booklet and a Doggie. It's beautiful and creative enough. Thanks~



We were invited to go into the hall together. When the door opened, screams and shouts can be heard from the juniors who waited for us. AJKs used balloons to welcome us. Some of the Form 5 scared of balloons, I think I was one of them too. We went in surprisingly and unexpectedly. It was very strange that that was my first feeling and last feeling to the farewell of AMCCO. Flora and Ruo Heng were the MC for the party. We were guided to sit on the chairs provided, in front of the juniors. I was worried that they cannot see the front. Form 5 seniors were invited to talk few words. I told them do enjoy the party. Flora tried to bring the atmosphere to the party, I knew it. Thanks Flora. There were performances by the juniors. Singing, acting, dancing.... Mostly were dancing. Well, I had no comment, just wanted to give them applause for the great job. Almost forget, we played two games, one was "Capturing Photo" and another one was "Limbo" Dance. I played the photo only, because I hurted my legs two days ago when skipping rope. The losers for the dance had to go to the stage, for punishment I think. Then was the simple and delicious eating time. I was the first one who started to get the bowl and spoon, started to choose my food. I liked the fried rice the most. YUMMY YUMMY~ Sandwiches also, made me reminded my home, my family. They made my feel happy and glad. I sat with Kai Xin, then Jia Yi came and chat with me, Sook Sin also. Sin Loo sat with Wai Teng, Sze Hui....I forget where she go. Anyway, after eating it was 11am. There is a culture in AMCCO, which is teasing the AJKs. Form 5s called the AJKs out, and we complained about the farewell. Then punishments came, I sprayed them with plain water. Some of the form 5s coloured their faces, pulled their hair or played with cosmestic. Happy hours past very quickly, teacher wanted us to stop playing, we felt a bit dissapointed. Then, a performance of sign language began. I was melted in tears when I saw Ying Hui pointing at me, and sang "Because of You, Because of Me". Extremely moved with the lyrics of that song, meaningful and nice. Song entitled "Wishing" then can be heard. Last but not least, the party continued with the slideshow, made by Sing Cong. It was funny to see the pictures of the 21 seniors, self-loving pictures and pictures without knowing. The slideshow just like the form 5s memories in AMCCO. From the beginning, we started to become AJK in AMCCO, complete our first task, which was the Farewell Party of AMCCO '08. Then was the competition in Genting last year, Welcoming Party 2009, Concert "Ballad of Spring", Trip to Cameron Highlands few months ago, the competition in Penang, and finally was the celebrating party. To all the form 5s, all of those photos had became our memory kept in our minds. It just like a flashback of what we had done previously. Of course, I was deeply touched, moved to tears. Too many precious and unforgetable memories I have in AMCCO. Sze Hui and I hugged together. We can't predict when will we meet again after graduate in AMC. Tears were rolling down non-stop. The party ended with sharing. I started to give out my bookmarks to all the juniors of form 3 and form 4. Some of the form 2s I also gave it to them. All the Yang Qin juniors got them too. I didn't buy anything for them, felt very sorry. I stayed there until 12.55pm and back home with Sim Yew. I hugged the juniors and say goodbye to them. This was the final part of the Farewell Party of AMCCO '09..




I received some presents from the juniors. Anime "Chobits" was from Ruan and Liu Qin whereas the book of learning japanese was from Sim Yew. Thank you. I love them very much. Well I didn't receive bears or dolls like Whit Ney had, she got 2 doraemons. Poor Whit Ney, had to bring the presents to the tuition centre. I think she was happy to receive the presents. Presidents and the vice usually get more presents than the others. I'm not jealous, this is the truth in life....


I don't want to say Goodbye to AMCCO. I don't want to leave AMCCO. I don't want to become the history of AMCCO. I don't want my name to be deleted or cancelled by the AMCCO's namelist. Time waits for no man, what can I do now? I have no chances to go back again. If I appeared in AMCCO, they would call me ex-senior. I'm not a member of AMCCO, just an ex one. What I regreted were too late. I hated myself for being lazy during practice in form 1 and form 2. What a wasting time. But, what can I do now? Shouting, crying and say God please let me go back to the past? Impossible mission. The feelings to AMCCO are complicated, all mixed up. The memories, just can be treasured in my heart forever only. I will not forget the days in AMCCO. If someone asked me what is the best memories in my school life, I would answers other than friends, AMCCO is the one. AMCCO gave me the strength and not to give up easily, AMCCO helped me to think wise, AMCCO is the place I grew and know lots of friends, AMCCO is the one which saved the memories of it in my "hard drive". I love Yang Qin, my seniors, my juniors, my friends, my post and AMCCO. It was the best part of my life currently. I don't know when will I come back to visit AMCCO again after SPM. Maybe a week, a month or even a year later. Who can predict that? After graduate, it is difficult to come back together with the same batch to AMCCO again. Farewell party is the last chance for the form 5s to gather. But after that? All of us will be busy with our things, we might not to come back easily. OH~ I REALLY HATE IT!!!!

Anyway, I wish the juniors of AMCCO all the best and keep practising and enjoying every music. Music is so special that it can tell story and how you feel. It can make people feel relax, calm, no worries, happy and enjoy. Hope that they will understand this feeling as what I felt before in AMCCO.

AMCCO, GOOD LUCK~!


P/S:
After this farewell, I understand that Ying Hui can lead the Yang Qin's juniors. She can help them and solve the problems Yang Qin faces. Wai Teng, another form 4, also will help Ying Hui. Jia Yi and Sin Loo too, they are good juniors. Later, Men Xin and Pei Xuan will go to Morning Session. So, Yang Qin, gambateh. I know that Sze Hui will agree with me that, we can leave Yang Qin without worrying at all. Hope to see you all after graduate. I promised you all that I will visit you all after SPM, and I will be back.
Huoy Tyng, Pei Yi, Yong Qi and Wan Wei, I have completed my job as a head of Yang Qin. I know sometimes I made mistakes, and we always face problems. They made me headache and stressful, but all have became the past, the history. Me and Sze Hui want to thanks to you all, and also we all must hope that the juniors will continue work hard.


AMCCO, thanks for everything~
Appreciate that....









I LOVE AMCCO FOREVER!!!!

Thursday, July 30, 2009

My Feelings~

Hey, since my blog seldom has new posts, then now I'm going to have a short update of what I had been going through these few days. My feelings are totally complicated and messed up. Let see what I feel.


Excited (25/7)
I'm still excited about Canteen Day 2009 in AMC. It was fun and enjoyable. I spent lots of coupons and money to buy food and drinks, play games also. I didn't duty for my class (5S7) stall, as I helped to pick rubbish with Sim Fah and Yi Juin, under the instruction of Miss Chin, our Maths teacher. I played water gun game, Horror Maze, Blur Blur Maze, slide...and ate delicious but expensive food. I also bought a cute cactus from 3P7, it is cute~ Horror Maze was the first ghost house I played. Well, quite scary inside, it was too dark, nearly can't see my fingers. Me and Sim Fah scared until shock and screamed!! Luckily there were 3 strangers (male) went in with us, if not, I think I stucked there and didn't dare to continue the game. Some "ghosts" were really HORROR, some didn't frighten me at all, so bad! That was my great and exhausted experience I had. That was the last time we form 5s had the Canteen Day in AMCCO. Long time didn't have the excited feel about school occasions. We earned much money, and happy with the news.


Worried
H1N1 is going to kill anyone anytime anywhere. It is a scary virus which frighten the people. Everyday we can get the new that there are some people died because of the virus. Everyone is informed to stay hygiene all the time. Wash hands oftenly and if have fever, flu, or cough, he has to wear a mask. Serious right? Anyway, take care my friends =D

Monday, July 20, 2009

回答问题!

1 我的大名:曾盈筠
2 我的生日:二月六号
3 谁传给你的:我自己copy
4 生日想得到什么礼物:有心意就好(最好是有关sakura)
5 近期压力大的事:功课一大堆赶不完
6 想做的事:睡觉。。。
7 有没有喜欢的人:曾经,现在没有
8 同学会要回去找老师吗:
9 跟谁出去最幸福 :自己吧
10如果你的两个好友吵架了:我会想办法
11 跟情人最想去哪:看星星、到海边
12 圣诞节要做啥:收礼物,开派对
13 最想跟谁过圣诞节:家人和朋友
14 有没有床气:?
15 有几个兄弟姐妹:1个妹妹
16 最喜欢的一首歌:(目前)我的回忆不是我的、身骑白马
17 喜欢什么颜色:PINK!!!
18 上厕所会不会后冲水:一定!不冲的话会臭臭的
19 喜欢男生还是女生:看是什么情况
20 最想大声说什么:我不想做功课、考试!!! 我不舍得华乐!!!
21 半夜敢不敢自己上厕所:急的话~
22 最近看过最好看最欲罢不能的小说是什么:不懂。。。
23 谁很欠打:那个“人”
24 现在很迷什么:Facebook, Blogger
25睡相很差:Er, 不好意思透露
26 现在的时间:2117
27是否痛恨传给你卷的人:自己copy, 当然是想玩才玩的,不讨厌~
28 体重多少:50+ (是时候减肥了)
29 今天天气:一个字——热
30你若中乐透最想做什么:买动漫、钢琴、扬琴,还有储蓄(可能发生吗?)
31 大学生一定要玩的活动:什么都好,只要享受就ok
32 失眠后会:跟自己说:别胡思乱想了,快睡、快睡。。

33 你睡觉有流口水的情况:有时啦!! 嘻嘻
34 近期开心的事:剪了头发
35 你经常通宵不睡吗:没有,紧张才会失眠
36推荐一首最近很喜欢的歌:SONIC BOOM
37 你能够和陌生人谈恋爱嘛?:绝对不能
38 自由对于你来说有多重要?:当然重要,我一直在追求的~
39你人生中最想做的事情是什么?:累了好好睡觉
40. 你最想为所爱的人做什么?:快乐就好了
附加问题: 你打算几时结婚啊?:最好就27! 哈哈~
附加问题:你觉得生活有喜感么?:赞成
附加问题: 相信塔罗牌么?:看情况
睡觉前第一件事: 闭眼睛
起床后第一件事:伸懒腰
你喜欢的季节:春天,带来希望的季节
打工次数:没试过
想去的地方: 日本、韩国、维也纳、香港、欧洲、澳洲、意大利、巴黎。。。
你讨厌什么样的个性:做作、爱炫耀、欺骗、爱指点别人
你会抽烟吗:绝对不可能!
你会喝酒吗:目前不会
你常哭吗:成年往事了
你常笑吗:哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈!!!
都睡到几点:0620
朋友和情人你会选:朋友
机会和命运你会选择:两个都一样重要,贪心的我两个都要!!!
你很自恋吗:哈哈哈哈哈哈,我爱自己!
你有穿耳洞么:有, 各耳朵一个
这问卷多不多:好多。。。。。。。。。。。。手累了
喜欢吃冰吗:我的最爱
现在幸福吗:蛮幸福的
最在乎那几个朋友: 多。。
房间里最重要的东西是什么:床和枕头!
男人精神出轨要不要原谅他:NO !!!
你认为人生的意义是什么:珍惜眼前的事物
没有朋友你会怎么做:傻傻地望着天空吧! 不太清楚
如果天使可以满足你一个愿望你会要什么:不要功课和考试、时光倒流
我为什么做这个答题:爽
喜欢吃的水果:橙

最害怕别人问你什么:看情况~
经常不叠被子吗:每天必做的事
喜欢雪么:超爱!
如果有下辈子要做什么:一棵树
舒克和贝塔喜欢哪个?:谁来的?
没有耐心做的一件事是什么:调音(扬琴)
不想看书的时候怎么办:听歌~
眼中的理想收入是多少(实际一点)?:不懂~
你认为一个人多大了才有能力去选择生活的方向:21
还希望这个问卷的问题继续增加:最好不要了
你的昵称是: Gwen



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